Unreasonable Expectations

Coffee with editor utterly pleasant (except for tricky moment in conversation when claim shared Love of Henry James--not a complete lie--did like Portrait of a Lady very much even though couldn't on pain of death recall even barest bones of plot--but trouble comes when topic of Wings of the Dove is raised and hear self saying sentence, It is always the end that gets me.) Gist of coffee meeting is that Editor says books is charming and original and she'd like to see a few changes (feel that her definition of few and mine alarmingly different), but that we should talk when I've got the next draft. Pea sized portion of brain that is rational sees that this is a completely respectable and forward-moving development. Rest of brain is very very disappointed to not be walking away with a large check.