Development Meeting

Have office meeting. Is run very efficiently by Cindy Stevens; we have a lot to discuss and most of it is with substance, but find attention wandering. First notice when discover self slumping in chair and wondering What it Looks Like under the acoustic tile, i.e. what is on the other side? What if a big Rat fell through? Worry, get hot, and slump. Tell self to sit up straight. Put pen to notepad and sit on edge of seat. Ask half-way intelligent question about Goals and receive firm nods from others around the table. Pleased with performance, vigilance ebbs and again begin looking at ceiling (perhaps have begun a new unhealthy fear? It is not just to be carbon monoxide, the Holland tunnel, global warming, electrical fires, and so on, but also drop ceilings? How uninspiring.) Sit up straight, on edge of seat, pen again poised. Do so for approximately two seconds and then enter dreamlike state in which see pen moving without really intending to do anything in particular until realize with jolt that have drawn passable horse, leaping over hurdle--more impressionistic than photorealistic, but one might say that one could almost see the muscles of the horse clenching under its sweaty hide. Rest of meeting spent trying to perfect horse drawing technique, but subsequent attempts come nowhere near the first. In weak moment after meeting, show drawing to Oliver who says Oh you drew a dog! Had thought of framing picture, but instead slide it into my desk calendar. Give Oliver unpleasant task of sending out form thank you notes, giving deadline of ASAP. Oliver gives egregious eye roll at this, but works dilligently until the task is done.