Real Person Modeling

Remember that at any moment Alex going to call and tell where to go to have picture taken for lots of money. Think about what "very well paid" actually means. Would think that it means more than five hundred dollars. Though as am real person and not professional, probably less than five thousand. Thoughts progress to the point that at lunch decide that need new shoes very badly. Have spent months and months window shopping--to be honest, not ony staying on the street side of the glass, but actually going inside the store to take closer, disdainful, look at product on display, disapproving of all current shoes for sale (toes too pointy, or too square, too bulbous) and then thinking about how small the bank account is and how don't really need new shoes, nor want them, and then leaving store feeling extremely Virtuous. Today, go into store on Fifth Avenue. Merchandise shimmers on racks. Store clearly touched by the divine. Gods of shopping have smiled down on endeavor and given blessing. (In truth, gods have dealt mortal blow to sanity.) In no time at all, have selected shoes (wingtip boots made of extremely soft leather), new tie (for what I'm not sure), two pairs of coloful socks. In the middle of the fever, congratulate self on not buying shockingly expensive boxer shorts even though care very much for the pattern of the cloth. Note miniscule sign next to cash register that says Only Store Exchanges up to 15 days after purchase. Small, clear, bell rings in head, but ignore, firmly. Emerge onto street, laden with treasure. Have forgotten what it feels like to spend a lot of money all at once. Feels very very good. Call up Dave and tell him of purchases. Says, good, you needed new shoes. What are they like? Describe. After talking to Dave, the Contessa comes back from lunch. Show her purchases. Is very excited. At about four, spell disappates. Recognize what have done, with horror. Did not need new shoes, not to mention new tie, or anything else that can only be taken back for store credit. Mood not improved when receive email from Alex that says Job has been canceled but that the casting director has my picture. Also, I might think about sending another picture, perhaps not so brightly lit.